You,
“Follow the Water”
As I laid in bed yesterday, I found
myself thinking, I could not be God. I could never take His place, not that my
ego doesn’t leap a little inside me at the mere prospect. But I truly couldn’t put
up with all the things He puts up with out of love and mercy. I do not have a
single merciful, patient, or forgiving bone in my body. It doesn’t come
naturally to me and all the love I have has been no help in covering up what I perceive
as personal wrongs. Because that is what our sins are to God – a personal
wrongdoing. It isn’t just an abstract thing that exists in the atmosphere. It is
a direct attack against God who is in turn kind, patient, merciful, and who
loves us unconditionally enough to forgive us the very moment we ask Him.
Thankfully, none of us is
called to play God. Beyond the fact that we would smite the world to
smithereens at every petty grievance or inconvenience, we do not have what it
takes to truly carry the weight of this world on our backs. Instead He asks of
us simple tasks like letting go of the things that bind us to this world in
anticipation of eternity, fighting to hold steadfastly to Him in the face of
loss and crippling grief, coming to surrender at His feet and accepting His love
and forgiveness, gratitude, trust, honesty…

Though seemingly difficult in
daily practice, His requests are infinitely easier in comparison to trying to
play God.