D,
I am sure it makes no
sense to you, in the moment, to tell you it will all pass. That is clear
enough. Depending on where you are in the healing process, every word I say
will be counted against what you believe, and I might make you withdraw or come
forward more so I can see you in all your heartbreak glory. Still, you know how
you feel, and I will not feign to understand the peculiar and particular colour
of your loss. It is enough that you are hurt. That I can speak to.
I know you are strong,
but no one is strong enough to be unaffected by their dreams going off the
rails. You put your hope in something and it did not become the fire you
imagined. There is no shame in this. There is no guilt to be had. Whatever you
think you did, you are human and that means you are not expected to be perfect by
anyone but yourself. Go through the process, let the thing hand around you a
bit and be moody. Listen to all that sad music and feel sorry for yourself.
There is nothing wrong with any of that. Remember that you are loved. You are
not a moment. You are a beautiful soul approaching the infinite. I love you and
I cannot wait to talk to you again, face to face. These hard things you feel
today are strong but temporary. I have tea. Tell me all about it.