H,
There is not a dream your mind can think up, that will appease the
eternally wondrous person you were made to be. All our dreams are limited. All our
wishes are rumblings. They are not fulfilled. They are not full. They are not
everything we could possibly be. We see in figments and never the whole
picture.
This is the problem: the limited can seem limitless. If you are born in
a certain economic bracket, income becomes important and seems like a mountain
to climb. If you are born to a high achieving family, leaving a mark becomes essential.
We take our identity and drive from the circumstances around us and put on that
garb, the idea that we must achieve these heights, or we do not live a life of
purpose and meaning. We equate the rat race, the run to the finish, the imaginary
ledgers of the world and the idea of “records” or “milestones” with eternal value.
Nothing we do on earth will be remembered forever. It is character that
lives forever, not action. Some acts show character and some acts build character,
but the discipline is not the point of mastering life. Life is always the
point. It is like saying the training wheels on a bicycle are the most
important thing or the bicycle is the most important thing. It is merely a means
of transportation. You will enjoy the journey but going home is the more essential
part.