H,
Everyone lives in a fragile state. We present as all together but we are
frequently falling apart. We are always wilting from some unseen force or known
fear. We are not having the best time of it and this is well hidden when we
succeed, and more exposed if we fail. Failure and success are the currency of
how we truly appear.
By success and failure, I do not mean in monetary terms. Many people have
overt success at living exactly the sort of life they believe in. They are
married and stable and live in the sort of house they want to. They do not want
or need a lot of money. And they do not have a lot of money. But it is
fundamentally the same. They sense an endlessness to living, a desperation, a realization
that life has no meaning after you get everything you want. If you are chasing
something and never catch it, you can live a whole life of ‘meaning’ in pursuit
of the ideal. If you do catch it, the questions begin.
In either case, the hunger and the wilting go on. We must reconcile this
even in the light. We are not advanced human beings because we know some
aspects of God. It is does not stop the wondering. It will not kill the
questions. We are all on a journey, all carrying our states along the road to
meaning and we are all doing this with hearts that could break at any moment. We
should always remember to be kind to ourselves and each other, along the way.