H,
There is always this thing, a mindset, or an act, trying to isolate you
from God. Do not let it. I do not mean to make it sound like this thing is some
outside force. It is often something within your choice. It is often you. We have
been told all the things that God does not like. We have been sold an impersonal
God, who does not care for anything other than the preservation of holiness
across the universe. This is simply not true.
There is nothing impersonal about God. He does not have a list of things
that make Him happy and that we must do, or He gets emotional. Every law is
made for us. Every rule is designed for our own good. And there is the great
summary of what it all means: love. If we love as we should, we fulfil the law.
It is about how we act and why we act that way, but the benefits are not in favour
of the divine, but for the benefit of the human.
God has and can live without us. We cannot live without God. There is no
life outside the source of life. The things we are called to do are not rules
to make God smile but a map to navigate enemy territory with. We live in a
fallen world. Nothing will work as it really should in this present stage of existence,
even us. We are here to learn that and to understand the light that is ahead of
us and now, within us. Do not carry the weight of all your sins. It will break you.
Let grace bear your burden. Do not let the dark make you feel alone. You are
never truly alone. God is at the door or in your heart. He is never as far away
as you think.