From
Psalm 139:1-22
H,
I know I can be unreasonable in my anger. Of course it is
nothing like that perfect scene where Jesu Christi went a little old testament
on the peddlers at the market. I have always struggled with that idea of being
angry but not sinning. How is exactly is that achieved? Sin over sinner? Present
issue over marred history? Demonstrative grace over mad flailing at the object
of true derision? Who knows?
The truth may be closer. It may a little more voodoo than
mind over matter. We cannot hate people of course because whatever they descend
to do it is never out of anything other than selfishness. It is not so much
that they hate you. They just love themselves. In other words it is conceit to
think that these moves against you are anti-you more than  pro-them. Their pleasure and your pain just
happen to coincide at that particular tragic moment. Does this help? In a sense
it seems less to believe this. We would rather be an integral enemy that just a
whim of someone’s caprice. That, of course, is just conceit. It helps in remembering
that your pleasure has been someone’s pain before. The little time you spent
thinking about that other pain is the start of realizing you are not the hero
of every story and may well be the villain in some.
This obsession with our own side of the story is anathema
to growth. We must see these things as wrong and decide that sin and sin nature
is the problem. In us and in others it is alive and well and is trying to kill
us. It must not catch us by surprise. We are human and our capacity for evil is
great but there is a spark lit in good that we reconnect with in God and all semblances
of good. The eternal triumph of good over evil has begun with our decision in
God. There can be no sympathy for the devil because now we have read all the
books and the world based on his low ideals is tethering to the brink of
extinction with only the veneer of civilization and the illusion of a better
place for some, if they are smarter, faster, harder, and the rest can go off a
cliff. We have seen the best rebellion has to offer.
We want more. We want an end to evil within and without. We
want a new earth. We want God.