From
Psalm 139:1-2
H,
It seems
that self awareness is peddled about a lot in religious and non-religious circles
but it is a crucial thing. There are many things we do that we cannot explain. At
first these acts seem alien to us and then they form into habit and we expect
them but we may never really know why we do them at all. The ‘talking cure’ as
pioneered by Freud and his colleagues hints at the possibility of exploring the
subconscious and what dreams may lie there that form in thoughts which more often
than not become acts.
All of
that is well and good and perhaps even revealing but nothing can prepare the
soul for the ‘hard’ questions that intimacy with God promises. There is no dark
place that the light that never goes out is not interested in ending. It is a
love above all because it is concerned not just with the idea that there is
intrinsic value in every human soul but that such value has eternal relevance
and can rise to the great heights of holiness. This is not a nagging or pushy
love that tells you almost with a snicker and that hypocritical sneer: “I just
want you to be better, baby”. This is the all front account of grace and the
leading up and up in love without any need to pull you down, the crucial Freudian
slip, in order to, allegedly, bring you up. In this sense, no human can bring
you up to anything. They can merely hinder and they can only help. Funny enough
when they try to ‘help’ they often hinder and when they try to be honest and
kind and loving they can only help.
The ultimate
aim of God is the reformation of the soul to its primordial efficacy. He is
curing death one soul at a time. It is not so we will live forever and become
bored and brooding vampires but that we are able to become part of, and truly
enjoy, the eternal delight. Love like this has to know your mind. Love like
this cannot guess at your acts and words of defiance. A love like this can only
start from above.