M,
After a while, it must be said, everything seems to shift into neutral. You have days when you cannot remember the reason you thought your love was sacred. You second guess everything and you doubt yourself and the story around giving your heart to just one person. It is in the nature of present human behaviour to feel lost. It is within the scope of our fears to put that loss on an imaginary slight and find all the bitterness in the world and all the problems coming from one single source.
But this is not all true. Love, rebounds. The partnership is built not in ease but in difficulty. It is in these tiring moments that you learn the true measure of the things you value. You come alive to the idea that the universe and all its guises can exist in just one bed. That you are not as insatiable or unloved as you might think. That the great horrors that once made solitary romantic love possible and plausible, are still being worked out in the context of present reality. You are growing up. You are not alone. You learn to drink wine and go to sleep. Arguments are poor dress rehearsals for the work that lies ahead: the gentle unpeeling of mutual souls till, through their fractured power, they become one. And love, rebounds.