From
Psalm 139:1-24
H,
It has to be clear from all that has occurred that God is
not what we wish Him to be or what we want to frequently use Him for. In the
best pursuit of the much hallowed God-life there is always the bitter pill of
almost constant disappointment. He is often fashionably late or in the wrong
place. There are enough opiates to make it seem like we mean “God is good all
the time”, but that is just what we say because we have been taught to be
afraid of His pettiness and how that might mean He would not be “good” the next
time. In reality (hehehe…the eponymous “let’s be real here”) there are many
times when our prayers and hopes and dreams and crucial moments go unattended.
I know it may seem like I am indicting God. I am really
laying the blame squarely on us. I think we are the ones in the wrong place at
the right time and, this, most of the time. This kind of thinking has no
novelty and it is frankly the cause of much misery in pursuit of God and then
the making up of doctrine to guess where God will be and what God might do. It is
not that we are wrong so we must find the right way. In the words of that poet,
Bono, we must really “stop helping God across the street like a little old lady”.
The bible tells us that we do not get answers because we ask the wrong
questions. It does not then leave it to our over hyped imaginations. It tells
us the questions. We are told how to pray.
We are lost in the most cosmic sense possible. It is not
a self help religion. We are not trying to find ourselves. We are simply
declaring ourselves willing to be found. We are in an act of surrender. It is
the start and the end of the Christian adventure. It is “our fatherin
heavenhallowed is your name/your kingdom come/your will be done…”
So, dear friend, what to do but realise the daily call to
kneel and ask and be found in love? Nothing. This is not as bad as we think it
will be. Being still in God is one of the most active things in ‘real’ life. Those
who are still in God get the most done. They are imbued with that eternal
weight and glory of knowing where they belong. The humdrum of the rat race is
in slow motion to them. There is the speed of light and sound in almost every
Godly step. If we let God in there is every promise of something bigger than
all our ideas, hopes, aspirations, ambitions, competitions and need for
affirmation. He puts the Zoe in life. An open heart in lieu of a restless body
will lead us to the things we want the most but do not yet know.