D,
The older you get, the
more your instinct is more the shield than the sword. The sword here is the
true state of things, the actual and real word of God, the way you really are
in the light. Something happens to tell us we should be weary of true feeling,
and our many weakened states or admitting how much we do not know. We become
stuck in that place. We become scared of our own shadow and the real image it predicts.
You must learn to be
vulnerable. You must put that guard down. You must learn to cry without shame,
to be nonplussed and not hate yourself, to fall and crack but let the light in
and to not listen to that other voice that speaks against your inherent value
and divine dignity in the face of present reality. You were always made for
more. These lessons will not take you. They are made for you. Be open to them.
It doesn’t matter if the world will see all that mess. The most important
things are way beyond this present world and all of us presently laboring under
its one measly sun. Your true self will overcome the sneer. Let that true self
show all the way through.