M,
I have always found it
hard to look behind me. The past is not something I wrestle with too much. I am,
in a sense, always starting over. This has its good sides, but I also fear I
have spots in my memory because I zip pass the crucial replays. I am always
trying to be light on my feet. Sometimes, it is better to let the heaviness in.
There is always the
weight of history. And these things are to be resolved, not avoided. There is
no beginning free of everything that came before. We do not put down an empty load
to be relieved of an empty burden. The burden is real. We must resolve it.