H,
We know how deep it gets
in the dark and full soul. We have lived on that edge our whole lives. It is not the easiest path, to find wholeness
and holiness in being who you are at any given time. The road is dusty with
pitfalls and sand traps, and so are we. There is always that quiet moment in
ourselves where we look for a thrill, any thrill at all, that quiets the loud
questions within our own souls. We cannot be alone with ourselves for long
without folly.
I am not sure that
feeling will go away any time soon. We will either learn to live with that
inner chaos or we will always yield to it and become poorer from it. We know
that the things we believe in speak to the healing of our whole lives. We know
that these “rules” around the path home are for our benefit and not a
counterpoint to our fun. There is a great redefinition going on. The change is
what is painful, not the destination.