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We keep going back to the idea of waiting on God, on waiting for His ultimate will and way to be fulfilled and for the glory to somehow show we are not the crackpots that we appear to be. That validation may never come this side of eternity. We might be crackpots for life.
Yet, it was and never will be about that sort of validation. We are not here to be proved right. It is not about earthly elevation. No milestone here can cut to the heart of the very human struggle with meaning. Even if all we want and need to happen does happen, it will not resolve as much as we think it will.
There is no other feeling to get to, no other place to be and no greater self to reveal to a waiting public. There are no garlands for our dishonorable desires to get ahead of the pack and no provision that will ever make us think we are good enough.
The time to be full is always now. Our hearts are in the scope of heaven. We can access that peace, that inner reserve of joy and love and faith at anytime. The glory inside will never match the buildings outside. The ennui of daily living speaks to our hearts of a greater space for mind and spirit. The body is such a distant third. Now is the time for our salvation. Now, is always the time to be filled up in God.