H,
You are absolutely right. There are those intense things we christened “love”,
too quickly. I have come around on them, though. I am kinder to the memory of
the flame. It was all learning and at best a stab at love. Attempts are fine. They
are the basis of learning. Even in the kingdom.
The old taste of memory used to sting, now it is all welcome. I let in
flood in. Why not? We live in too much fear over everything. It does not make us
more loyal or more “good”. It does not make us more like God. Fear keeps us in
the box and there, it provides the illusion of safety or, worse still, lulls us
into a false sense of being right.
The repressed emotions of our youth are the sudden outbursts of our
older years. There is no need to repress emotion. It is just the way you feel. It
is not God. It is not real life. It is rarely even accurate. It is just the way
you feel. We must admit that to ourselves. We must feel again and talk to that
feeling with wisdom. Not with fear. Fear is the box. Wisdom is the wide path of
the narrow way.
To hear this, you would think the shadows are past. No, sir. There are
no real goodbyes. We are all on the learning curve. We are all becoming something
beautiful, in the end. The shadows will come. Sometimes, they will overwhelm. Yet,
we live in the light. The sun is above, and the moon is there in the night. It reminds
us, by translucence, that the sun is coming around again. There are no real
goodbyes.