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Introspection is always the thing that gets you. Who wants to look at
these mirrors into our true state all the time? 
We cannot take the truth and light about who we truly are, not in this
human moment where ego and id are the key to our self-identifiers. We are fragile
in body and in soul. Most stains last a lifetime.
The light we get is in small doses. We cannot take our full medicine. We
would wilt in the full sun. We must, almost, live by night. The fantasy is that
we are well from the first day. The reality is that our present lifetimes are a
tiny drop in the raging ocean of eternity. We will get on this. We will be
better in time.
We will more than that. We will be perfect. We will be whole. All the
ugliness in us will fall flat in the face of power, truth and form made in the
eternal shape. This is not the end of the story. You may look in the mirror
today, but they hold only a sense of present reality. They do not tell us the
whole truth. Remember this, every time you look in the mirror. There is much
more to come from you and everything else.